Saturday, May 22, 2010

Disappointments Come

Last week was difficult for me. I experienced disappointment. Disappointment that stopped me in my tracks, made me shed tears, and planted itself in my thoughts for DAYS! Disappointment that I could not share until now...

I cried uncontrollable at work for an hour (I was alone). Yep... the kinda crying that takes my breath away, turns my nose cranberry red and swells my eyes shut! Just UGLY crying! Y'all know how I cry. It took me 45 minutes before I could leave work and walk out to my car. I cried again when I closed the car door. I drove and sobbed down Lakeland Drive, unaware of anyone else in commuter traffic. I hope no one saw me.

Don't worry, Alvin is still in my good graces :-) He didn't cause my grief. I was upset about an incident that occurred at work. Just as I was about to end the work day, I received news that I didn't get a career opportunity that I really wanted. Seems kinda silly now, but I was devastated last week.

Then something happened!! You see, I have TWO full-time jobs. Most days I arrive at my second job at 6pm, but last week I was 10 minutes early. I sat in my car and stared at the building. I knew I had to straighten up before my "boss" saw my face. As I walked inside, another coworker gave me the biggest heartfelt hug. She didn't ask if anyone died, she just knew I needed some encouragement before my shift began (thanks Lori).

I walked through the door and Ava (my little boss lady) ran and jumped into my arms. I was at her school. Six o'clock is the best time of the day! I arrive at my other full-time job as an active mommy and wife. No matter what else I have tackled throughout the day, it all fades when I arrive and see my family! My credentials and experiences are always adequate. My bosses promote me everyday, I have job security and my payments are priceless hugs and kisses!!

Ava saw the tears fall. She rubbed my face and asked "What's wrong mommy?". I explained it all in full detail during our drive home. Haha, I really think she understood what happened. Edney met us in the driveway like he does everyday, his eyes widened when he saw my face. I told him I was fine, but he wanted answers. It took my husband about 20 minutes to realize I was curled in our bed. Haahaa, bless him. Through broken sentences, nose blowing and difficult breathing I explain to them both that I didn't get the job and my best friend had accepted another position. Not working with the friend was the most hurtful part. I will have to tell you about her later.

My family hates to see me upset. They showed me their concern and tried to lift my spirits. Ava laid by my side. Edney recited a speech that I've given him when he's had a bad day..."Tomorrow is a new day. Jesus gives us new mornings, so we can do things different and better than the day before." He DOES listen :-) And my sweet husband let me cry...and cry... and cry. He told me he would do anything to make me feel better, so I made him a list of things that would make me happy. Heeheehe. Then he burst into our bedroom with this.....

Hahaaaaha! Alvin will do almost anything to make me laugh. I just love it!

He stared at me in this position until I gave him a smile :-))

Ava and Elmo are laughing at Daddy too! He makes us laugh.

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